Oh my... four months and counting... I can't believe how busy I've been since my last blog. So much has happened. January and February just blew past me like a breeze! Two months in a nutshell? ABAP Programming crash course! March was just a darling month! 30 fantabulous days with my favorite girls in the U.S. A vacay to be rememebered forever. I can't begin to describe the beautiful places I saw, the great people I hung out with, and the amazing shopping experience. April was a daze... But it was mostly about revisting my work principles, the value I put in my personal time and life. Somehow, such thoughts echoed in the background as I was getting back into the groove of things after a month-long vacay. May, cruising along now as I type, has been the plumber's paste, glueing everything together, but still in a gray-ish, unclear way. This leads me to my latest thoughts in general about life and work...

At this point in my life, I've been involved with I.T. for three years now, not counting the years I spent trying to LEARN what the industry is about (concept-wise). My vacay sort of made me think if the life I have right now, is the life I want forever (or indicates the beginnings of the life I wish to have). Between the long hours in the office, slaving away for something which doesn't exactly excite me, dealing with the competitive undertones of work, and the constant need to prove to myself and other people that I'm good enough to be where I am, I AM TIRED. Tired and UNSURE. It's hard dealing with 2 strong emotions. Being tired doesn't leave me with much energy to figure out what I really want to do. But now, more than ever, I think I strongly feel a need for a change in scenery. I like being in my team and all, but I guess being there has lost its need for me. I don't feel like the team needs me anyway, so why bother spend time working? I dunno... really... I guess, the hours of my day are spent sighing over my frustrations, suppressing exasperated groans....

ARGH.

Hehe. Thanks blogger. I guess venting just gave you the breath of life once again.